Post Sabbatical Reflections

Last October, I felt led to take a sabbatical from my blog and email community for a season. That decision came after a soul searching conversation with my friend Marlita Hill, who has a way of helping draw out from me my heart concerns as well as hopes. You can read more about that conversation here.

Now, I’m standing at the other end of that sabbatical and it’s time to share the gifts that came out of that time with the hope that it will encourage you.

First of all, it was simply lovely to have that bit of extra space in my life, more time for family and a bit more soul space. We traveled to Arizona to see my parents, my 105 year old grandma, my aunt and uncle, and my sister and her children, and then we entertained 9 people in our home from my husband’s side of the family for a week in our home. It was so fun to just be present with my family.

Enjoying family time in Arizona.

In addition, I received a handful of ministry invitations, a few that seemed to come out of the blue, requests to choreograph and teach, some from people I had never (or hardly) met. To me, this was such confirmation of what Marlita had said, when we talked about my fear of setting any of my dance commitments aside for a time. Here’s what she said:

If he calls us to lay them down for a season, it’s because He has a reason, and His reasons include our welfare and factor in the desires of our heart. Sometimes He asks us to lay something down so that we can hear what His purposes really are for that thing and so that we can come back to do that later with greater clarity or preparedness.

So, I’d love to share about a few of these invitations with you so that you can celebrate the open doors He’s allowed and, as you feel led, pray for me as I  prepare for and engage in them:

In November, I received an email from a church about an hour from me, asking if I would choreograph a dance for their team that would be part of their Christmas musical. What was so cool to me about this was that this was a group that exactly fit the type of people I feel called to. The dancers and leaders have huge hearts for worship, extensive experience using sign language in worship, and the desire to broaden their choreography. I worked with a combination of youth and children. I felt like the assignment was hand picked for me. They had simply found me from my website. After choreographing a dance at Christmas for them, I am choreographing two dances for their Easter outreach service. This has been a great partnership, which is also in line with my desire to gather a liturgical dance team in my area.

Preparing to present and presenting O Come, O Come, Emmanuel in Mission Viejo, CA

In December, I received an invitation to teach at a women’s retreat also about an hour from here. This was from a woman I had met at a Dancing for Him conference. Again, the Lord is giving me opportunities to connect with dancers in this area and pass on what He’s been teaching me.

Also in December, I was given the opportunity to dance in worship at the very first worship service of the church my husband and I are planting here in Pasadena. It was such a joy for me to use the dance to sow into this church. It was especially beautiful and meaningful to me because my husband asked me to dance in street clothes, not full garb, and to keep it very simple, using gestures, rather than dancing in full.  (That tiny red front part of the stage in the picture below was the entire space I was given for the dance.) It took me back to my very early days of dancing in church, even before I had any formal training. I danced not as a performer, but simply as another worshiper using movement to better bring the heart of a song to life. Most of the people attending either haven’t seen dance in church or haven’t liked what they have seen. God really used it to touch them. One friend said, “I loved it. It drew me into worship. It was like I was seeing through you to the Lord.” Another pastor present expressed how much it touched him, and he invited me to one day dance at the church he pastors, another church that is wary of liturgical dance.

Left: the platform on which I was to dance. Middle: me dressed to dance and my husband to preach. Right: the worship team preparing to lead our first service.

In early January, I received an email from a pastor in Maryland who has been reading my blog and emails over the past year. She invited me to come and train their dance team. Before accepting the invitation, I asked her what her vision for the event was and what drew her to my ministry. This was her response:

We have a dance ministry in our church, but we need to be trained in the purpose, vision and movements for the Lord based on the scriptures. Our dancers have experience but not that much. We have girls from 6 and up and also young ladies.

When we spoke, she told me she had been praying and fasting and asking the Lord to lead her as she sought training for her team. She was crying when she shared with me her desire to see them truly grow in having a heart of worship and  ministry.

Again, I sensed that the assignment was hand picked for me to pass on just what God has put on my heart and trained me for.

These are just a few of the doors that opened over the past few months. I’m saving others to share in a future post. This one is already so long!

But I want to close by thanking you for your prayer and encouragement during my sabbatical.

I also want to encourage you, if you are feeling torn or overwhelmed by the multitude of tasks you have committed yourself to. Know that, if you lay something down, even for only a season, you may receive it back in a more mature form.

Lastly, I’d appreciate ongoing prayer for these new ministry assignments, each of which stretches me. Pray that I don’t approach them out of my own strength and ideas but that I would learn to better listen the the Spirit and follow His lead.

I’d love to hear from you. Please share in the comments a time when you stepped back from a beloved activity and found that when you returned to it, you experienced greater clarity or purpose.

Or, share what is on your heart right now in terms of ministry and how you are maintaining time to stay connected to Jesus as you approach it.

Thanks so much for allowing me to be part of your life.

2 thoughts on “Post Sabbatical Reflections”

  1. Hello I am reading this and i believe it was meant for me. I have recently taken on the position of being dance instructor at my church. 2016 was our begining year. I have danced in church all my life rather by myself or with family and friends. I have found that dancing for God is my passion, its a gift that was given to me. I can remember being younger wanting to minister to my audience and I said a prayer for God to annoit my hands and ever since that day God had given me just what i asked for. Sometimes I even find myself in the spirit and he will take over my entire dance. I can rehearse one way and when I go to perform it will be completely different. I move by God’s Grace I guess you can say. But last year was a busy year and very overwhelming with the task of being dance instructor. Setting practices and getting full dedication from my girls was the hardest part. I worked night shift for majority of the year so most times i was just getting off of work at 6am trying to make it to practice at 8am. This was a very difficult task for me especially when my girls were barely partipating. Needless to say I became disgusted with the outcome and I stopped dancing. Honestly now i see that was a trick of the enemy . But at the time i was so hurt that I can have so much passion for something that i get 2hrs. Of sleep and still managed to be at rehearsal but i couldn’t get a dedicated group of girls to match my hunger for dance. I let that get to me and eventually i stopped dancing. I would barely go to church. Well, on my break from dancing I had alot of exciting events happen. I switched jobs I was now on a job that allowed me to be off on weekends which were my practice days. I became a newly wed with a little one on the way. I was still the dance instructor I just hadn’t had time for practice. My mom brought to my attention that i was allowing the devil to defeat me. I was thinking that it didn’t matter one way or another if i came. We werent dancing anymore. My desire had deminished, I didn’t feel like the same person. I had become so caught up in everything else that I didn’t even feel like dancing myself anymore. The pregnancy was taking a toll on me and I was still upset about before. With alot of prayer and guidance i started to feel better and more like myself. 5mos. Into my pregnancy the pastor talked to me and asked if i would start the dance team back up. I told him yes and i started with new girls. Things weren’t so easy being pregnant and teaching dance but i found myself at practice late nights without a care in the world. Just happy to teach and worship. I have been teaching dances my entire pregnancy with no complaints. I was blessed with a healthy baby girl. Even though working, being a fulltime mom of two already, being pregnant, being a newly wed and also managing a dance team -GOD has really blessed me and shown me favor. Now I can finally see my desire coming back. I plan on making this year one of the best! Keep praying for my strength as I do what God has called me to do. Thank you so much for your blog….

    1. Thank you so much for sharing your story, Latoya. It sounds like the Lord has given you a powerful anointing. Congratulations on your new baby. I pray that He supplies you with every good thing you need as you do His will. Keep your eyes on Him.

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